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Continue reading →: Embracing the Void: Missing Love After Loss
You know what I miss? Like really really miss. And ever since my husband Brad died. There are a lot of things that I’ve missed about him and about being with him. Like I miss making videos with him as I would sit in this very chair in this very…
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Continue reading →: Grief
You never notice how safe someone made the world feel. Until the world feels different without them in it. And nobody warns you about that part. Grief hides itself. In ordinary moments. A story you still save for them. The instinct to reach for someone who no longer answers back.…
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Continue reading →: Missing you today
I remember the day that they told me that you were gone. I would never be able to see you ever again. Now I tried to hold back my tears, but my heart had just shattered into a bajillion little pieces. Pieces that no one would be able to ever…
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Continue reading →: Healing from Heartbreak: Finding Hope Again
My pain has spent years trying to recruit me. Every heartbreak has whispered the same thing. Stop being so trusting. Stop giving people the benefit of the doubt. Stop loving so deeply. And if I’m honest, there were days those voices made perfect sense. Because it’s exhausting watching kindness get…
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Continue reading →: Embracing Grief: Turning the Page After Loss
It’s hard to turn the page, when you know someone won’t be in the next chapter. Their absence is a hollow space in your heart. A silence that lingers were laughter once lived. Grief isn’t just sadness. It’s love that has nowhere to go. A longing that time can’t erase.…
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Continue reading →: The Girl I Miss: Embracing Past Innocence
I regret many versions of myself. The girl who loved people more than they loved her. The girl who stayed too long, who begged, who made excuses, who let people apologize when really she should have been saying goodbye. There are plenty of versions of me I’m glad I outgrew.…
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Continue reading →: The Weight of Sadness: Learning to Cope Over Time
I just want to be done being sad about this but I think I’ll be sad about it forever not in the big all-encompassing way that I’m sad about it now but I don’t think I’ll ever fully let it go it was a very helpless feeling that comes with…
Some people measure their lives in milestones; I measure mine in simmering pots, freshly turned soil, and the unbothered blink of a cat named Mr. Beans. I’m Julep – a former medical professional who spent nearly three decades in the trenches of healthcare, learning the delicate art of caring for others, keeping calm in chaos, and understanding that the smallest comforts can heal the spirit. But after all those years of rushing from one urgent task to the next, I finally traded my stethoscope for a wooden spoon and a trowel. Now my days are a slower, richer recipe: cooking hearty meals that fill the kitchen with warmth, volunteering in ways that let me give back without burning out, and tending a garden where patience rewards you with something beautiful – or at least a very proud tomato plant. And through it all, Mr. Beans supervises every endeavor with the quiet authority of a furry CEO. This blog is where I share those post-medical-life musings: the lessons from the hospital hallways, the joy found in a well-risen loaf, and the gentle reminder that reinvention is possible at any age – especially when you have a good cat by your side.